A GOOD PERSON’S CONFLICTwritten by YUKARI
自分の気持ちを我慢しがちな人への処方箋。
知人に仕事を紹介されたゆかり。やりたかった仕事だと喜んでいたのも束の間、苦手な業務を割り当てられてしまった。しかし、知人に気を遣い、本心を伝えずに我慢して過ごす日々。その仕事は10カ月経過し、心の奥にはいまだに吐き出せていない感情が溜っていた。
ある日突然「もうやりたくない…」という気持ちが溢れだした。ようやく本心を上司に告げると、あっさりと「やりたいことやれば」と言われたが、彼女はなにも感じず、「もう少し考えさせて下さい」と言うのが精いっぱいだった。
間もなく、別の知人から「人前で話すこと」を依頼される。やりたかったはずなのに、うまくできるはずがないと断る理由を考えようとするゆかり。しかし、コーチの「苦手だからやるんですよ」という言葉で勇気を持って受け容れることができ、今までのパターンを覆すことで、いい体験ができたのだが、今度はプライベートの問題へ。初めての夫婦喧嘩が勃発したのだ。彼にとても言いにくいことを告げられ、口もきかない日々が続く…。彼女は同じパターンを何度も繰り返していた…。
Yukari was offered a job at a company she had always wanted to work for she was so happy. Unfortunately when she started she was assigned to a post which she disliked and was worried about telling her boss. She wasn’t able to express her true feelings and suppressed them. 10 months passed and she continued to keep her feelings to herself, until one day,she couldn’t stand it anymore and she finally told her boss who said “Do whatever you feel is best.” but she couldn’t feel anything anymore and couldn’t act on his words.
After that, another acquaintance asked her to give a speech,she tried to refuse because she didn’t think she could it, even though deep down inside she wanted to do. Yet again she was experiencing an internal conflict as to what she should do. She spoke with her life coach who said “You don’t really like speaking to a crowd so you face up to your fears and try it.” She did just that and the experience turned her around and she became more confident, happier and satisfied at work and at home.
In another episode , she had a serious quarrel with her husband for the first time. He had said something that upset her, it touched upon a delicate subject causing yet another internal conflict and they haven’t talked since .She has been repeating the same action in her life for so long.
